A Heart or Two its His Design

So last night I was having issues with falling asleep and as i reached my arm over to snuggle up to the hubby my hand landed on his heart. i started to think this is soothing, i miss this when hes gone to the field, or where ever the army takes him, im going to miss it when he dies (i know i shouldn't think like that but i like to prepare for death for years, im just weird in that way). 


Then it hit me, like the holy spirit came floating through my thoughts....your heart isnt your heart as your mind isn't just your mind.. they are wrapped up into one...your soul to everlasting life.


Now let me back up here, i was also thinking about how he has two hearts (hubby).. 
A heart muscle and another heart in which many of us talk about "emotions" ..for example "my heart is telling me to go with him but my head is telling me that my whole life is rooted here" so right there is a battle of between your brain and your emotional heart but yet they are as 'one' your physical beating heart has nothing to do with it.


Then i went on to thinking well your beating heart keeps you alive, its a very important muscle, it is two pumps in one, blood pumps in and sends it to the lungs,the other half gets blood from the lungs and sends it out to your body. We cant live with out this. 


Next my mind wondered to a tender moment in my life. my step-dads death - from cancer, it was two different kinds of cancer and it spread every where.(his lungs, his heart, his brain, everywhere) He never let it get to him, sure it corrupted his mind sometimes and it was like he looked and acted not himself all the time.. but his soul, his smile never left I could see it, he listened and he still showed his love for you. He fought his cancerous body with his emotional heart, all his soul. He got himself to the end of giving others the chance to say goodbye. He fought with a selflessness of okay its time for the kids to know and they flocked to him, they loved, they talked, they hugged, and they cried together. Everyone wanted to know how much time he had left, but in honesty he has all the time in the world, of ever lasting life and in our very own emotional heart. His physical heart no longer beating, but his soul flies around us from time to time. Our emotional heart will always carry him.
Back to my point, your soul and emotional heart will fight your physical heart, your mind, your whole body. An that to me proves that God created Us, its His perfect design, of our own feel will.

So i guess what the holy spirit was and probably has been trying to tell me is. Your beating heart, your emotional heart, your brain, and your soul are all wrapped up into ONE.
Just like your heart muscle, two pumps act as ONE
Just as you have two lungs you can live with ONE
Just as you have two sides left and right you can live with just ONE
Just like when you get married two become ONE
Just like it takes two to make a baby you create ONE

You have only one soul, one life, and many chances to become the one person who meant the world to another.